After finding Christ Jesus as my Saviour on February 22, 1959, my life changed traumatically. I had an uncanny obsession and hunger to know Him, to see Him and to hear His voice. I thirsted after Him during long, lonely nights. His first appearance was when I was born again.
Then suddenly, about seven months later, He began to appear intermittently, as He willed it to be so. In the early three and a half years (September 1960 to 1964), I began to hear His voice (JN 10:27a) and to see His person in vision form, sometimes even in tangible form where I could touch Him. (1 JN 1:1-3)
In those days, I saw and heard Him outside of me. Now in these latter years (beginning in 1981), I both see and hear Him on the inside and outside of me - as He wills. My gospel does not violate the Scriptures, for Jesus is the Teacher. (JN 16:12-15; 1 JN 2:17)
Once, I challenged my mind and thoughts of their authenticity saying to myself, “I must be losing my mind!” Suddenly, His voice spoke back to me saying, “This is not your mind, My son - it is the Lord!” It was awesome, thrilling, foreboding and delightfully wonderful! I did not know that anything like this could really happen to people!
The first time I heard His voice was while I was eating dinner with my family. It was so clear! Right in the middle of a bite of food I heard Him talking on the inside of me, within my spirit, so clearly and audibly. I thought everyone at the table heard it. I answered Him saying, “Is that right, Lord?”
Everyone looked at me so strangely, then my wife said, “I wish you would stop being so spiritual.” I said, “Honey, I did not ask Him to talk to me, besides, I did not know that He could!” He continued to converse with me about a close family member, telling me what the problems were and how to deal with them. I obeyed Him and needless to say, that loved one was delivered from serious sin.
This event began a new relationship with the Lord. He was training, teaching and proving me (JN 14:26; 16:13; 1 JN 2:27; 1 TH 5:19, 21; 1 JN 4:1) yet, I would not accept anything from Him unless He validated what He was saying with the Scriptures. I soon learned not to reveal these things to other believers as it was always met with severe criticism, especially from the leaders.
In the initial years I did not understand the importance of recording His words to me and lost much of what He said. Then His appearances stopped after I had been a Christian for about three and a half years. Why? I do not know, but I think it was because I stopped sharing what He said to me with others, because the criticism was so painful.
It was not until many years later, in September of 1981, that He began to appear to me again. This time I recorded His words. It happened when my son and I went on a business trip to Minneapolis, Minnesota. There, the mantle and anointing of seeing and hearing the Lord fell on me once again.
In those early years His appearances were always outside of me; now His appearances happen both inside and outside of me, as He wills. When they occur inside, my head becomes a room which is fifteen to twenty feet high and thirty feet in diameter. It is circular in shape and dome-styled. My shoulders are floor level.
In visions, He appears to me in this room and talks with me, just like I would if I came into a room of your house and talked with you. About the time He began to appear again in 1981, a Prophetess came to me saying, “The Lord wants you to write down the words He’s giving you. Your natural mind can not retain them.”
Immediately, He appeared in my room saying, “I want you to title the book ‘Epistles of the Kingdom unto Royal by the Holy Spirit.’” Please understand that I do not equate these sayings or appearances as being equal to the Scriptures. I believe they are merely illuminations (EP 1:18) of what He wants me to understand. (LU 24:32; JN 14:21ef)
I fear disobeying Him, therefore, I am now setting forth these writings as He has commanded. I do not believe I am some sort of privileged person. He is the Lord of all, including these writings. (RO 11:36 amp)
My salvation experience was comparable to Paul’s conversion. (AC 9:1-16; 22:4-21; 26:9-16) His grace to me was so wonderfully strange and powerful. For weeks afterwards it was difficult to keep my mind focused on the things of this world, so I went to an Assembly of God Pastor for counselling. He gently laughed and said, “More people ought to have that problem.”
Ten months after being saved and one month after being baptized with the Holy Spirit according to Acts 14, I began to preach and evangelize in Mexico. Signs, wonders and miracles were everywhere! I nearly memorised T.L. Osborn’s book, “Healing the Sick.” This book had such a profound effect upon me that I found myself preaching the same faith message. At that time, I did not know about gifts, callings and offices (RO 11:29; EP 4:11-13), yet my only desire was to please my Saviour, to win souls and heal the sick.
In good conscience I could not neglect my family and employer, so I spent every spare moment, and I mean every spare moment, seeking God’s face. Christians who knew me were worried, yet I was having a wonderful love affair with Jesus! Sinners loved me, but Christians - long standing in Christ - were terribly vocal and critical.
Over the years, the Lord has led me in and out of many experiences. Some were very painful, some were equally joyful. Through it all, His word and His presence became richer and more There are many ways in which the Lord communicates with His children such as visions, dreams, intuitive knowings, the audible voice, the inaudible voice and angelic visitations. He graciously blessed me, with every one of these wonders. Yet, the Holy Spirit was always confirming and validating everything He said with His written Word. (JN 14:26cd)
During the many long, lonely night hours of seeking Him, He began to teach on His Spirit principles and laws (RO 8:2; 2 T1 2:5; JA 1:22) found in His word by the revelation workings of the Holy Spirit (EP 1:17-18), with many infallible proofs. (AC 1:3) He was always bringing to my memory; book, chapter and verse for all that He said. The school of hard knocks and suffering was my greatest blessing. (2 CO 6:3-10; HE 5:7; JN 17:18) He was always at my side “never leaving me, nor forsaking me.” (HE 13:5; RO 8:28; 1 JN 2:27; JN 16:12-14; 2 CO 13:1)
There were five long, excruciatingly painful years of being in the crucible of God’s refining fires where He purged me, causing a deep and intense heart search with ever increasing depths of repentance. Then, in September of 1981, His mantle (anointing) fell afresh upon me once again! He sovereignly came, healing all the wounds and memories that inflicted me while with my brethren in the House of the Lord. He removed all the fears, doubts and disillusionment I had. The joy of His glorious presence had returned!
But an angel from God appeared with a warning of future valleys and ‘shadows of death’ I was yet to experience, as well as a promise that God would also bring a new anointing. The angel said, “The Lord is going to work an experience of righteousness in you that has never been experienced in believers since the Cross.” He was no longer hiding Himself. I passed the tests! Jesus had kept me in testings rejections, persecutions, lies, accusation and betrayals. Jesus was beside and in me afresh. His voice was even clearer than before. He rekindled and renewed our love relationship. Hallelujah!
Then He began to open doors for me to minister once again. Oh, what triumph and glory! What joy unspeakable! He is truly wonderful and indescribable. He is Lord of all the heavens and earth. He is my Beginning and End, my All in All. He is the First and the Last in me, the One Who is, Who was, and Who is yet to come! To Him be the glory forever and ever! Amen!
Extracted from the Preface of the book Epistles Of The Kingdom Unto Royal By The Holy Spirit.
